NJ to Ecuador

Why do we do the things we do?  Why do we fall in love with the person we are with?  Why does a chance meeting sometimes change the path of your life forever?  I ask myself these things often lately.  I think the one question that I will never be able to answer is why do I stick around?  Honestly, some days I don't know why I stick around.  Before I get to that, let me introduce myself, my name is Darlene, I live in NJ, I have 3 kids, I am a full time student and I am stuck on someone.  His name is Isaac, right now he is in Ecuador, this is his native country, we met while he was living in NJ, many years ago.  I loved him from the moment I met him, and even though the paths in our lives have gone to different places, he is still the love of my life, my soul mate and my best friend.  My youngest son is his, more or less, he is not the biological father, but he might as well be.  He has been there since I was 4 months pregnant, was there when the baby was born, the only father he knows, the only man who deserves to have such an amazing little boy.  My boy calls him Papa Bear.  His biological father wants nothing to do with him, which is fine with me, he does not deserve to be in his life.  When he is older he will know the truth, but this is fine for now.  Why Isaac left is another story for another blog.....since he has been gone, we have never been closer and our love has never been stronger.  We have a silent understanding that if either of us wants to date someone, we will, but we also know that when he comes back at the end of the year, we will be together.  Oh I am sure some of you are shaking your heads on this one and I get it, it is just how we are.  He gets me and I get him, it is perfect this way.  This is just my ploy to keep you coming back to read more :) Input from others who have had long distance love is welcome also, I hope you enjoy this little peek into my world and my heart.

Darlene