The waiting is over...for now

Isaac and I have been talking a lot over the past few days, I am happy that he has started remembering more, each day a new bit comes back to him.  Some times he doesn't even realize it, this is great progress.  We are starting to be more and more like we were, this is a good thing.  It is nice that I am less of a stranger to him, I know that sounds odd, because even with everything, I never was a stranger, but it is nice that he is feeling more familiar with me.  The jokes are more comfortable, and he knows he can tease me to no end and I won't get upset with him.  I know one day soon all of this will be a distant memory and he will know everything again.  Late at night, when I miss him most, I know that he is looking at the same moon as I am, I just wonder if he is alone.  I can drive myself crazy thinking all of these things, which for the most part are just in my head, I know he is alone in bed, just as I am.  I know he doesn't think of those things too, he chosen not to.  I don't blame him, I just wish I could be that secure with everything.  I never was.  And sadly, I probably never will be.  I would love to have that quality.  As I am writing this now, we are on Y messenger, nothing has been said between us for about 15 minutes or so, but it's ok, just knowing he is there is a comfort to me. We have been through much together, this is just another speed bump in our journey.  I am counting the days until I get to see him, to touch him, just to know he is real,  it just seems so far away.  I can't bear it some days, I just want to scream. Sometimes I think I am screaming, just that no one can hear me.  Maybe I am, on the inside.  I want to blame all of this on myself, this whole ordeal, he wouldn't have leave if it wasn't for me, me and my stupidity.  Trying to get someone jealous never works girls, trust me, it never works.  My heart will remain forever his, now what I have to do is see how long it takes for him to come home and reclaim it.