When the distance gets to be too much......now what?

What do you do?  When it gets too much to bear, and you can't go one another day, now what?  Well, you write, or you cry, or you do both.  There are times when you just can't talk on the phone, besides the huge phone bills, the service is horrible, so trying to hear him is very hard, did I mention he has a fairly thick accent, so that doesn't help either.  You cherish every 5 minutes you get, you save emails and instant messenger conversations and you read them and re-read them every time you feel alone.  You make plans in your head, you cross off days on the calendar to when he comes home.  You deal with it.  Not as easy as it sounds, but you do it.  I have a definite plan in my head for when he comes back, I want to move down south, North Carolina probably.  I want to buy a house, I want to have a life away from here.....away from everyone and everything I know.  Don't get me wrong, I love my family and friends, but I want a fresh start, go somewhere where no one knows me.  And that place is not here.  The past few weeks has been increasingly hard for me, I have done a lot of thinking, a lot of soul searching and I have come to a decision.  He is the one I want to be with, I don't want to go out on meaningless dates with guys that I really don't even like.  It has all been pointless and meaningless.  My energies need to be focused on my family, my schooling and my relationship, period.  I need to stop thinking like a single girl and start thinking like someone who is in a committed relationship with someone she is going to spend the rest of her life with.  Wow....did I really say that???  I am looking forward to planning the long overdue wedding, very long overdue!  Isaac said it right the other day, this is a new beginning for us, and he is right, we need to start with a clean slate, just like we did 6 years ago.  There are rumors about that I am going to get a ring soon, it would be nice, also a long time coming.  If it does happen, I will be so happy, all of this waiting will be worth it.  I never doubted whether it would be worth it or not, but some skeptics have, and that's all fine and good, let them, I don't have to prove anything to anyone, neither of us do.  For the first time in a long time I am really excited about the future, maybe my next blog will be wedding planning?